Haha I suck at taking breaks don’t I. But how can you stay away from something that you love? Writing is my passion, always has been, probably always will be and honestly with my head being all over the place, the one thing that keeps me grounded is writing and sharing on my blog.
But I am going to be honest, I do need to cut down and go through some of my own therapy tips. Honestly your mind goes through so much a day and I think mine is stuck in the past on a constant loop. I wouldn’t mind if it was the good bit of the past, but it’s not. I am taking more time for myself, trying to make myself feel better. Whether that means I stay in bed until 11am or I shower at 9pm, I just go with the flow and do what feels right.
I have been made myself my own worse enemy, which for me isn’t actually that hard considering my self esteem was literally non exsistant.
I have already typed up my first of January 2018 post, yes it needs going over and pictures need to be taken ect, but I have the basic guidelines already up. That’s how much I have missed writing.
I have already planned a new schedule, one that isn’t me writing uploading on here everyday. I want to make my YouTube a serious part of my blog life, so I have added that into a new schedule. I have done it in a way which works well for me. I am going to be selfish here and say I don’t really care if you’re not happy with the final results.
Four years ago, this blog was a way to escape my bad days and I would write about the things I wanted too, now, I find that I am uploading content to fit around you, to make you happy, and yes, if I want this to be my job, I need to do that, but I also need to write about the things I love too.
Because I miss writing so much, I am going to upload 3 times for the last 2 months. One at the beginning that will be my monthly goals. One in the middle which will be a general chit chat update of my life and the third will be if I completed my goals. That’ll be it until the new year.
I will be away for the rest of the week, some things are going on, I still wont be active on my Instagram or Twitter. If you follow my photography instagram account @alannahollambys_photography I will still be doing my upload on there because it’s not linked to my blog.
I will read your posts next week when I am back. Also, Lucy Flight (the best YouTuber, and my idol) is bringing out her merch tomorrow, so follow her YouTube, Twitter and Instagram to be able to purchase a hoodie, t-shirt or popsocket. I was going to buy them but unfortuantely, I will be unable too and I know they will be sold out within the day so I would have missed my chance. But if you’re interested, be sure to support her and purchase an item.
Thats it for now. I will speak to you in hopefully a week. Stay safe tonight and don’t eat too much candy!